NONONONONONONONONONONONO!

NO!

I'm not in the greates mood. I feel bitter sweet. My mind is numb and I don't know where I stand. Today, the phone rang, and he was on the other line. He said they would run away to be together forever. What is the rush. She's only 20 and he is 24. They think they are ready, little do they know. This marriage will turn oud like most of the marriages in my family. The others all were wed young and divorced later. It's not my place to decide though, because i am only young and haven't yet experienced this dangerous emotion of love. Let this me a lesson for me, that I may be wiser with my actions and judgement. I want to be there for her. I love and support her, but it's the couple that I think is a mistake because she appears to be blinded by love. This is evident through the fact that she no longer cares for my parents' opinion.

location: my room mood: bitter sweet music: the sound of a mother's cry

Since it has been a while since my last post, I thought it would be best to inform you all that I am alive, well, and continue to live my life.


How about yourselves?

mood: crazy

I am choosing to write to take my mind off of politics. I really have no clue what is in store for the future. oh well. actually, dangit. I can't not focus on politics. Things are ... I can't do this right now. My head is cluttered and I have no way for emptying it. That and I can't stand the drama. Grrr. Why am I so dificult? I fail at life. I'll try again. grrr. Talk to me if you want, and I'll try to not make you too uncomfortable with my views...

I currently am eating lunch outside near the koi pond. It's awesome to actually be able to get wireless here.
Anyway, I just got out of my English 1A class where we are doing some political debating and stuff like research having to do with California. It's actually quite interesting. I like it.
The next class I have is my Math 12 classl. That class is soo much more easy to understand than high school ever was. I know I have an A.

Tomorrow I have Concert Choir which is always a fun thing. We are learning a variety of pieces... some new broadway style, and some old. We are singing Walking on The Green Grass and Sure on This Shining Night.

wednesday is math and english again, and Friday, I'm taking a drawing class, witch is fun too. I never thought I'd come to a point where I needed to take my drawing style down a level or two. We are working with charcoal and doing gesture style. The class requires that I keep a sketchbook, where I draw how and what i want. I like it. I scanned and posted some sketches to my facebook.
I hope everyone else is having as much fun as I am. TTYL

To math I go!

location: By the Koi Pond @ SC music: the wind through the trees.

Starting with June, I hosted my graduation party at my house with tons of food and movies and homework burning (expected around 30 or so, 8 actually showed :(). Then I went camping at Buck's Lake near Quincy with the fam which was fun. Then came my 18 birthday on the 27 which I spent with my family cuz I was not much in the mood for having people over after the poor turnout for my graduation. Then comes July. I got hired at B&C as soon as I turned 18 (I am their lumber boy out in the yard). I also started coming to the Trinity Community Choir rehearsals which is fun to go and sing with a bunch of old high school grads and buddies. Later that month I performed with them at the wednesday night market. In August I went to the fair on wednesday, Carshow in Reno on Thursday, then sang the national anthem with a group of the boys from the community choir. I now am waiting for school to start. I am going to Sierra College (local campus) starting the 25.

location: my room mood: bored music: Loompa Land: Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

In my mind only I see
The pictures and the memories
Of a life eternally
Living as me

-John Lawrence Stevens II

 I got attacked in the face by a hammer today...

Also, happy birthday to Kirstin (Pacificpikachu).

mood: content